14. The Myth of Sisyphus as it relates to the current state of my life

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     The Myth of Sisyphus describes a man who has been punished in his death for all of eternity. Sisyphus is condemned to the underworld, where he is forced to push a large rock to the top of a mountain only to watch it fall all the way back down and be forced to perform the task all over again. You can learn more about it here.
     The Myth of Sisyphus is basically a metaphor for a persons search for meaning in their lives. Their condition is similar to that of Sisyphus - as humans, we do some variation of the same thing everyday. We are forced to work, or go to school, or perform other tasks. We do it because we have to, but we don't necessarily like it. We complain about going to school, or going to work. And we do this because we have not yet accepted or acknowledged the "futility" of what we have to do. According to the myth, we can only truly be content once we accept the absurdity of our situation.
    Right now, I feel like Sisyphus. I'm pushing a large, metaphorical rock up the mountain. I feel stuck. I live in a perpetual state of blah. And I can feel it - like when I reach the top of the mountain, I can be happy. But the rock just falls right back down again. Maybe what I need to do, is just accept my condition. Accept that every time I reach the top, I'm just going to have to go back down again. But if I could accept it, maybe the trip back up won't be so bad.